2013 Wish for Cheryl Burke

In the new year may your life be filled with cheer; with new hopes, new dreams with no room for fear.

In the new year let joy & happiness overtake your heart, let the light shine in to overshadow the dark.

In this world there's nothing you can't do, I believe in you, this I know to be true.

Let your dreams & aspirations take you to new heights forever & ever. My prayers are with you on your every endeavor.

Always be happy, never feel blue.
With that being said, Cheryl, I Love You!!
Happy New Year Cheryl!! 2013
Forever,
Tina

BrownieGirlBlogs: "Tales of a woman's heart"

BrownieGirlBlogs: "Tales of a woman's heart": Love is such a powerful word. It gives out so much of what's within us. Love is a weakness that us women have seemingly more profoundly than...

"Tales of a woman's heart"

Love is such a powerful word. It gives out so much of what's within us. Love is a weakness that us women have seemingly more profoundly than men. We love harder as we are naturally more emotional creatures. What I have learned about relationships in women is that we give ourselves away too easily. We wonder why our hearts play the role of getting broken or why we are the ones left with the scars of broken relationship. Well, I can answer that. Sometimes, we as women don't like the thought of being alone or we convince ourselves we're ready for a serious relationship. The question is have you taken the time to ask yourselves why the last relationship didn't work or what caused the rift between you. When you have taken the time to yourselves and discover the answers, it is then when you can determine when or if you're truly ready for a long-term relationship. Too often we women want to rush being with someone for comfort or validation, but you will never fully be satisfied because you can't find those things in yourself all by yourself. Men seem to be a weakness to so many of us women and that needs to stop because that is the cause of our demise. Relationships fall apart because we fall in love too easily with any little flutter of butterflies we may feel towards that individual. Be careful to think with your head and not your heart because the heart does not discriminate and can be deceiving. Ladies, take time to know who you are and what it is you really want for yourselves and value your mind and your bodies. Don't make it easy for any man to have you. Make them earn your love and your trust. Be firm and stand your ground. Don't fall for just anyone or anything or your misfortunes in relationships will continue to be an unsuccessful pattern.
My love to you ladies,
Be strong,
Tina

Understanding "Cheryl"

Over the past couple of years as a Cheryl Burke supporter I've had my reservations about her. I didn't understand many things about her. Like why she didn't seem to connect with her fans like some celebrities do. Sometimes I felt confused or hurt by what seemed like an ungrateful attitude towards her fans and followers. I often wondered why she wouldn't talk to the paparazzi or rarely spoke to the media. In my mind it was rude. But after her book "Dancing Lessons" was released in early 2011 an epiphany hit me as I was reading her story and suddenly everything I wondered about Cheryl suddenly made sense to me. Cheryl was exposed to some pretty bad things at such a tender age. Her father left her when she was 2 and between the ages of 5 and 6 was molested and had to testify against the person and take the stand at the age of 6. That had to be too much for a little girl to take on. Later down the line she was verbally and physically abused by former boyfriends that shot her self-esteem down to nothing. When people are constantly coming in and out of your life that you put your trust in only to let you down you start to build walls around your heart to keep further pain from causing more brokenness to your already wounded heart. Sometimes trying to protect ourselves from pain can come across as cold- hearted and it can often rub people the wrong way. Cheryl gets that a lot. People say she ignores her fans and only caters to her celebrity friends. I've often thought the same and by no means condone ignoring the ones that love and support you. I'm simply saying that cheryl has a hard time trusting people. She's been hurt her entire life and I think we should try to understand where she is coming from and not be so quick to call her disrespecting names. We don't know what she's going through or what's going through her mind. We don't know if those horrible memories still haunt her. The bible says in proverbs 4:7 that we should get understanding. Which means when we have no understanding about something we make assumptions, but when we begin to understand something everything is crystal clear. After reading Cheryl's book I understood her better. I understood why she was quiet and kept to herself and why she didn't open her mouth when bombarded with questions by the paparazzi. They have a way of twisting your comments into something negative. They have a way of scrutinizing you forgetting you are human and have feelings to. I've even been called some not so great names to for supporting such a person of Cheryl Burke. But I don't allow what people think of me and my support for Cheryl to change whats in my heart about her. I have my reasons and God knows exactly why. Not anyone's opinion will change me or stray me away from what I choose to do. I feel Cheryl's pain. In so many ways, I, too have been in the many dark places she has been and understand how hard it is to find yourself there. I just wanted Cheryl's fans and followers to try to be more understanding and show a little respect. We can't make her do anything she doesn't want to do or doesn't feel comfortable doing at the time. However, I'd like to see Cheryl reach out to her fans more because we really do love and support her. I want nothing but the best for her life and her future and for her to make great choices for herself as she continues to live in a not so perfect world where criticism plays a crucial part in our lives. We just have to learn to roll with the punches. Criticism shouldn't handle us, but rather how we handle Criticism. So to Cheryl's fans and followers I wanted to shine light on Cheryl because she has been through a lot and bringing her down with negative comments is not the way to go. Let her be who she is and pray for her best.
With all the love I have for Cheryl and you guys,
Tina

A poem for me(Tina)

"Life has been a winding road for me; I am no longer blind but still can't see.
There have been many obstacles, roadblocks and bumps...LORD, I ask, when will I find my way out and TRIUMPH?
I'm reaching the point of no return to throw my hands up including my concerns.
Tired of the letdowns, heartaches and pain...Cause in the end, What do I really gain?
Maybe,God I should just release my dreams to you and let you mold them into the things you would like for me to do- and allow you to take control and just do you. It is finished.

---Tina

Prayer for Salvation for Tina, Cheryl & Melanie

A Prayer for Salvation in Behalf of Others
Father, I come before You in prayer and in faith, believing. Your Word says that You desire all men to be saved and come into the knowledge of the truth, so I bring Tina,Cheryl,Melanie(name) before You this day.
I break the power of Satan from his assignments and activities in Tina,Cheryl & Melanie's life in the Name of Jesus. Now, while Satan is bound, I ask that You send forth the perfect laborers to share the good news of the gospel in such a way that he (she) will listen and understand it. As the truth is ministered, I believe _Tina,Cheryl & Melanie will come to his (her) senses and come out of the snare of the devil and make Jesus the Lord of his (her) life.

Father, I ask that You fill Tina, Cheryl & Melanie with the knowledge of Your will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding. As I intercede in his (her) behalf, I believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is activated and from this moment on, I shall praise and thank You for Tina,Cheryl, & Melanie's salvation. I am confident that You are alert and active, watching over Your Word to perform it. It will not return to You void. It will accomplish that which You please and prosper in the thing whereto it was sent.

Therefore, my confession of faith is, "God has begun a good work in Tina, Cheryl & Melanie's life and He will perform it and bring it to full completion until the day of Jesus Christ, in Jesus' Name."

Amen.

The Power of Love

While living In a world where our burdens have taken refugee in our lives, it has also played a role in stealing our joy. We don't smile anymore, but we wear a frown and everything has become all about ourselves. There's no love for one another anymore. Well, I'm here to change that. In Mark 12:28-31; Jesus says, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." and what Jesus meant was not to love those who live near us or nearby, but to love all mankind- even our enemies! I know sometimes that seems to be a pretty hard commandment to live by when others have wronged us. Often times we want to retaliate or isolate ourselves from the world. Love is power. It has the ability to do many things. Love is infinite. Love is unselfish. Love is when you can extend it to others without having any animosity when ignored by those who have no need for you or act as if you serve no importance or place in their lives. It is then when you can fully recognize GOD in your life- when your heart hurts for others. When you have genuine brotherly love and affection for all mankind. Love conquers all. Love heals. Love is patient. Love is understanding. Love is thoughtful. Love can transmit "brokenness" to "wholeness". The Power of love is standing by someone who has pushed you away because of the fears they may have from their past or from years of abuse or the abusing and misusing of their trust. Violating something sacred they once entrusted you with is now "Paranoia". As a servant of God who is still struggling with my own issues, I have my own trust issues and I am leaning towards God to get me through my fears. I can't do it on my own abilities. God is my father. Jesus is my savior and The Holy Spirit is my helper. They together are the Trinity created in heaven. God wants us to love one another and be our brothers' helper. Regardless of how you may treat me or the doubts or uncertainty you may have about me. One thing you can be certain of is that I have the "Heart" of God and I only want to be of service to you. Win souls and help you heal. I am not perfect. I have my own imperfections and shortcomings. I don't claim to be perfect or without sin. I am but a mere human and I suffer many things. But God, my Father has given me a heart for his people and he wants me to share it all with you. I will stand by you, never harm you. Love you, never hate you. I will help take you to a place of peace. I will help you find your secret place where there is nothing but peace that surpasses all understanding. That peace is GOD. And GOD is LOVE!!! Thank you holy spirit for guiding me through this and speaking through me. I Love you all!
Tina

Prayers against Satan(The Devil) To: @melanieJlover

Satan, the Lord rebuke thee (Zechariah 3:2) Get thee hence, Satan, for it is written (Luke 4:8).
I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven(Luke 10:18)
I loose myself from every bond of Satan in the name of Jesus(Luke 13:16) Lord, bruise Satan under my feet(Romans 16:20) I bind and rebuke all hindering spirits of Satan in the name of Jesus(1 Thess. 2:18) I renounce all ungodly anger, and I give no place to the devil(Eph. 4:27)
Melanie, read this and chant this out loud in your apartment! May the enemy flee from you! Take back what the devil stole from you! Fight back in the name of Jesus! He is your savior, your protector and your shield! I, Tina plead the blood of Jesus over your life and I rebuke Satan on your behalf in the name of Jesus!) Fight! Fight! Fight! The battle is not yours, but the Lord's! Let him fight for you! You are not weak but are strong in the Lord!!!
In Jesus name,
It is finished!
Tina( your prayer warrior friend and sister.)

Damaged Goods (women scorned)

I want to dedicate this topic on women who have been scorned. I am one of the women scorned. I entitled this blog post Damaged Goods because there are so many good women out there that have been abused and misused that now they have all of these steel walls built around their heart to protect it from the pain of the outside world. As I have spoken in my previous post that I was damaged at an early age between the ages of 5 and 6 years of age. Seeing nothing but abuse growing up that in all of my adult years I've been running away from the one thing that scares me. That thing is a fear of intimacy or closeness and oneness with another. I fear as soon as I let my guard down that someone will hurt me or betray me or use something against me. It's that unsettling thought of the unknown so I don't take the chance. It's an Imprisoning hold you place upon yourself and that's never good. Most women put on a good face, a smile or polite conversation, but behind all of that is pure pain. Not knowing how to get past that pain is the most traumatizing emotion one could ever feel. There's this side of you that wants to reach out, but that fear that's got you pinned down that just won't allow you to go there. I am speaking for myself here as I am dealing with these very emotions, but there is a way out of this. You have to recognize there's a problem with you and seek help. Being in denial will only lengthen this issue. Being stubborn or hard to deal with doesn't help matters much either. You have to want to get better, open up your heart and take chances ladies, including myself. The unknown scares my pants off and I'm still struggling to get past this. It's not easy for me to trust people because I've been hurt so many times by them. I have to learn to let go and let God. I have yet to master this excercise but I'm going to get there somehow or I will miss out on some really great and amazing things God has in store for me. I'm sure I've missed out on so much already. I have to realize that there are some good people in the world and there are bad. I must digest the idea that not everyone is out to get me or hurt me. You just have to smart about the decisions you make in your life and the people you let in your circle. Trust your gut, your instinct, Pray and take a chance. God will always protect you if you trust him enough to do so. It's hard for me to do at times. I'm a work in progress and I've got a long way to go. I am a good woman who cares for others. I would never purposely Hurt someone when I know I wouldn't want it to come back on me. Ladies, tell yourself you are worthy and no longer a Damaged Good. You are just GOOD.

Be encouraged,
Love, Tina

Just hold on...

I know I've got a lot to learn, but still waiting for my turn... To live out all my dreams, but so far away they seem. At times I have my doubts, sometimes I wanna scream and shout and just throw my hands up in the air and tell the world I no longer care.
Love, Tina La Rosa Wheeler

Dear God....

I feel the need to speak with you, for shamefully I've barely said a word to you. Forgive me, for I have sinned, I wanted to start over but didn't know where to begin. Today, I am heavy hearted. I feel not appreciated or maybe just not important in the eyes of others. I feel at this present moment unworthy. I just feel trapped in limbo. No matter the efforts or the good intentions I always try to have, things always turn around to kick me down. And for what? Because I care so much? If that is the case then maybe I shouldn't care anymore. Sometimes the big and loving heart you have so blessed me with dear lord carries quite the burden on me. I want to replace it at times with a heart that's stoned cold. Then maybe I wouldn't be so affected by life's letdowns. God, I want to give up everything. Forgive me for feeling this way. But right now I'm a hurting soul. I try to forget my pain often and be strong for others that are in despairs as I have been. I don't ever want to be selfish to the point that other's feelings are irrevelant to my own. I know that what I'm feeling is nothing compared to others because as I've learned that someone out there has it worse. But I'm human Dear God. I hurt to. I never mean to cause you disappointment, for I, to have been disappointed and sometimes I act it out in the wrong way. Dear God, please help me. Please lead me. Please Guide me. Please speak to me. I may not have done all I can, but I need you to help me STAND. I love you.

Your Daughter,
Tina

The inability of my tears

Over the years I've experienced great pain and disappointment. Being disappointed seems to have become second natured in my life. Sometimes when we've been hurt more times than we can count we develop a defense mechanism to keep anyone or anything from causing further pain. At times it will come across as cold or distant. What I have developed in all the dismays in my life is a numbness and inability to cry. When I feel the emotions building up and the tears cover my eyes I begin to suppress them. In my mind crying never solves anything. I don't like for people to see me at a vulnerable state. It has been years since I've cried my heart out which would explain the constant stress and tension I carry that causes most of my migraines. It's just too much emotional buildup inside of me and my body is trying to tell me to RELEASE it so that I may be set free, but the stubborn side of me just won't allow it. The last I cried the most was last March 2011 when I did something from the heart for someone and was overlooked for it. It tore me apart because I only operate from the heart. So after that incident I packed away the tears and said never again. Has it gotten so bad that now I am unable to feel for myself? I feel for others all the time, but for me it's impossible. The inability of my tears is from years of depression, heartache and more letdowns than I can count. As of late I've been slowly releasing tears. Nothing too heavy, but as light as the mist of the rain. I think God is slowly pushing it out of me because the buildup of emotions are starting to really weigh hard on me. My advice to anyone in this predicament is I understand how and why you feel this way. I've been there, done that and still in the midst of it. Allow your emotions to be shown. Vulnerability isn't a sign of your weakness. It is a sign of your strength. Although I haven't been able to reach the point of fully releasing my pain through my tears, I am at a breaking point where someday out of nowhere they will come so fast that I will not have enough time to suppress them. Your body can only hold so much for so long.

My love I leave with you,
Tina