Dear God....

I feel the need to speak with you, for shamefully I've barely said a word to you. Forgive me, for I have sinned, I wanted to start over but didn't know where to begin. Today, I am heavy hearted. I feel not appreciated or maybe just not important in the eyes of others. I feel at this present moment unworthy. I just feel trapped in limbo. No matter the efforts or the good intentions I always try to have, things always turn around to kick me down. And for what? Because I care so much? If that is the case then maybe I shouldn't care anymore. Sometimes the big and loving heart you have so blessed me with dear lord carries quite the burden on me. I want to replace it at times with a heart that's stoned cold. Then maybe I wouldn't be so affected by life's letdowns. God, I want to give up everything. Forgive me for feeling this way. But right now I'm a hurting soul. I try to forget my pain often and be strong for others that are in despairs as I have been. I don't ever want to be selfish to the point that other's feelings are irrevelant to my own. I know that what I'm feeling is nothing compared to others because as I've learned that someone out there has it worse. But I'm human Dear God. I hurt to. I never mean to cause you disappointment, for I, to have been disappointed and sometimes I act it out in the wrong way. Dear God, please help me. Please lead me. Please Guide me. Please speak to me. I may not have done all I can, but I need you to help me STAND. I love you.

Your Daughter,
Tina