Damaged Goods (women scorned)

I want to dedicate this topic on women who have been scorned. I am one of the women scorned. I entitled this blog post Damaged Goods because there are so many good women out there that have been abused and misused that now they have all of these steel walls built around their heart to protect it from the pain of the outside world. As I have spoken in my previous post that I was damaged at an early age between the ages of 5 and 6 years of age. Seeing nothing but abuse growing up that in all of my adult years I've been running away from the one thing that scares me. That thing is a fear of intimacy or closeness and oneness with another. I fear as soon as I let my guard down that someone will hurt me or betray me or use something against me. It's that unsettling thought of the unknown so I don't take the chance. It's an Imprisoning hold you place upon yourself and that's never good. Most women put on a good face, a smile or polite conversation, but behind all of that is pure pain. Not knowing how to get past that pain is the most traumatizing emotion one could ever feel. There's this side of you that wants to reach out, but that fear that's got you pinned down that just won't allow you to go there. I am speaking for myself here as I am dealing with these very emotions, but there is a way out of this. You have to recognize there's a problem with you and seek help. Being in denial will only lengthen this issue. Being stubborn or hard to deal with doesn't help matters much either. You have to want to get better, open up your heart and take chances ladies, including myself. The unknown scares my pants off and I'm still struggling to get past this. It's not easy for me to trust people because I've been hurt so many times by them. I have to learn to let go and let God. I have yet to master this excercise but I'm going to get there somehow or I will miss out on some really great and amazing things God has in store for me. I'm sure I've missed out on so much already. I have to realize that there are some good people in the world and there are bad. I must digest the idea that not everyone is out to get me or hurt me. You just have to smart about the decisions you make in your life and the people you let in your circle. Trust your gut, your instinct, Pray and take a chance. God will always protect you if you trust him enough to do so. It's hard for me to do at times. I'm a work in progress and I've got a long way to go. I am a good woman who cares for others. I would never purposely Hurt someone when I know I wouldn't want it to come back on me. Ladies, tell yourself you are worthy and no longer a Damaged Good. You are just GOOD.

Be encouraged,
Love, Tina