'My Heartbreak"

I Know many are wondering or maybe just some are wondering what has happened to me or why I've gone into seclusion as of recently...well its a long story and although I will not neccessarily mention what threw me into my depression I will share with my faithful followers why I feel the way that I do. Since my childhood I've had nothing but misfortunes, bad luck or no luck at all. But dont get me wrong I'm not much of a superstitioness but do feel my life has been cursed. I'm in no way perfect or without fault, but I always try to have good intentions behind what I do and yet its never enough. In my childhood I experienced and witnessed all kinds of abuse from my father abusing my mom, to my father sometimes abusing us to being mentally and verbally abused by my sister at the time. I was a very nervous and timid child and didnt talk much to anyone and only wanted to be under my mom. Even at the tender age of 4-6 I trusted no one and I dont trust many people now. Its true what they say that humans will let you down but God never does. I've been let down, lied to, played for a fool, used and abused by so many that its impossible for me to know whose genuine and real in my life. I give and operate from my heart and its always over-looked. Sometimes I hate having the heart that I have because some dont seem to care how kind it really is. In all my years of living I've never been able to catch a break. I have dreams and goals that are almost Impossible to touch. I come very close, but its always taken right from under my feet. I just wanna give up. I cant say that I've worked extra hard for my dreams simply because I do not know how. The little that I've done continously slaps me in the face and people continously let me down. I give my all and my support and yet I feel like nothing.I feel as though I'm just existing in this world not mattering to many. One thing about me that you'll never have to doubt is my loyalty and trust to you and that anybody can count on me for anything. I will put myself and feelings aside for any who needs me. I love everyone. Sorry for disappearing on you guys from twitter but I had to do it for me as a certain event happened that threw me into my depression. I was deeply hurt by this and opened my eyes to alot

. I just couldnt believe what was revealed to me. I will go no further with this as I will end it here. I will soon return to twitter but still need a little more time away to myself because I am still hurting deeply. I love you guys and especially to those that's shown concern. Means alot. Thanks!

God Bless,

Tina