"Strongholds"

In this blog entry I will be talking about" Strongholds". Strongholds for those who dont know is something that has a "Hold"on you and your life. It can stem from anything such as childhood trauma to resentment, fear, anger, regret or abandonment. These things can pause many blessings in your life and keep you from moving forward happily and successfully. Strongholds hold you back from your best and the best that is yet to come. To be set free from such a spirit, you must first recognize the problem, accept it as your personal truth and begin the process of breaking free! The enemy (Satan) comes to steal, kill and destroy us and steal away our joy. We give him power over us because we surrender to his lies and allow him to gain access over our lives, but it is time to take back what the devil stole from you! SATAN only has the power if you give it to him. There is a constant battle with "Self" asking questions like am I pretty, fat, ugly, skinny,smart, dumb and the feelings of inadequacy. All these things are considered Strongholds. You can not allow these things to control you any longer. Break free and surrender it all to God! There are many of you out there whom are battling depression. I know alot on this subject as I have battled Depression my whole life. Depression in our world means that of a 'Chemical Imbalance" or shift in hormones, but it's really just a stream of lies satan wants you to believe to keep you from your best and the blessings that are set before you. He doesnt want to you be happy. He wants you miserable to keep your focus away from God. So you have to decide and determine if you want these things to take over your life or you wanna gain power over yourself and have true joy in the now and future. Unfortunately, Not everyone is a believer of God, nor do they take the time to pray. AHA! that's the the trap that satan has set before you. He has you exactly where he wants you. Do you want that? You are not a child of Darkness, but a child of "The Light". Let go of anger, bitterness, resentment and cold-heartedness. Once you've broken free of these Strongholds, you'll feel the world and its burdens lifted from your shoulders. Its your choice. You can have all the therapy in the world all day, everyday but untill you accept inside of you that change has to take place, you will forever be imprisoned by the things that hold you down. Strongholds can be a person and or thing. Sometimes to break free you have to go to the source that is holding you down. If not, then moving towards the future will be a pretty hard road to travel. you will find yourself on a Winding road not knowing which direction to take. You will remain lost. Many of us hide behind our smile or our desk or our careers just so we dont have to face our demons or what bottles us down, but is that really fair to you? Are you not more worthy? Let Go and Let God!

My love I leave with you,

God's daughter,

Tina

"Lessons from the Heart" (Dancing Lessons) To: "Cheryl Burke & The World"

I was inspired to write this blog entry based on a recent interview of Dancing with the Stars pro Cheryl Burke on The Dr. Drew show on HLN. As many Cheryl Burke fans know the talented dancer wrote and released her book entitled "Dancing Lessons" How I found passion and Potential on the dance floor and in life" A wonderfully written story about her life growing up and the trauma she's had to experience as a child being sexually molested to being abused by former boyfriends. In Ms. Burke's interview she was asked if she could ever or have forgiven her molester and her answer was and I Quote; "I don't think I could ever forgive him" End Quote." This struck a cord with me because as a christian woman I know that in order to be forgiven you must first forgive. In the message above it states that forgiveness is not so much for the person needing forgiveness but for forgiveness of yourself to get well and move on. I think we owe it to ourselves to forgive so that we can produce eternal peace in joy in our lives. I understand where Ms. Burke is coming from. I, too experience alot of abuse, low self-esteem, timidity, shame and embarrassment due to the things I've had to witness and experience and even endure in my childhood. My father was a monster who literally growled like some sick animal when abusing my mom threatning to kill her and us to. Meaning me, my sister and younger brother. He traumatized me mentally causing me to not trust anybody particularly men because all I saw growing up was abuse in my household and around the neighborhood. I only saw the bad that men do and not so much any good. Now I'm struggling to be in a relationship with a man because anytime one gets too close to me I push them away. It took me years and years and years to forgive my father for what he put us through but I knew I had to find it in my heart to do it or when the time comes around when I needed forgiveness no one would offer it to me, but most importantly God wouldnt forgive me. Also in the interview with Ms. Burke I picked up alot of pain, denial and holding back of emotion of her tears. Another problem for which I have. I've become so immune to not allowing myself to cry that when the time came where I needed to the tears found it hard to break their way through. I picked up alot of things Ms. Burke said in her interviews that contradict alot of what she's written in her book as well..Almost like she's trying hard to cover some other secret she's not quite ready for the world to know about just yet. I understand it's Hollywood and you are sometimes told what to say and how to handle certain questions that are thrown at you, but I hope at the end of the day Ms. Burke is truly honest with herself and her true feelings because as human beings we should cherish ourselves and be honest and open about ourselves. If not, who can we be honest with? There's a special guy out there waiting for her but she must first conquer as many demons she's dealing with before moving on. She owes it to herself or she's just asking for another doomed relationship. If there's a lingering problem from her former relationships then I'd suggest she go to that person and resolve it before pushing forward. Live, learn, love, forgive and let God handle the rest. I hope whoever reads this blog enjoyed it to the fullest and I can only hope I have been of great help to someone else out there dealing with the things discussed in this topic.

God Bless Everyone,

Peace & my love I leave with you,

-Tina

"Heart of Gratitude" (Where has it gone?)

These days we over-look the little things in life that people do for us such as small gestures like giving a flower to the one you love or a poem to express our love and admiration for that special someone or forgetting about the people that have your back and support you in the things that you pursue. There's no "Heart of Gratitude" in the hearts of men anymore and that bothers me. Where has it gone? The human race is becoming more and more self-absorbed and all that matters is themselves and getting ahead, but its not always about ourselves. Sometimes we need to give back and show gratitude and a thankful heart to the ones that normally show how much they care about you. I'm not perfect by any means, but glory be to God for the humble, modest, grateful, down-to-earth and loving attitude he has given me. I wouldnt have it any other way. If I were famous I'd still remain the same because I know who I am as a person and I know my heart. I am no different and certainly no better than the next person. We are all created equally and who am I to think too highly of myself than I ought to? Jesus is KING and had every right to act as such, but he was lowly, humble and modest when God sent him here on earth. Why do mere humans act above themselves and others? Its non-sense and its sad. Surely all that we gain on earth shall remain and be destroyed when we leave this earth. The behavior of humans simply breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes. nobody is about helping and loving each other anymore. There's no gratitude, theres no love. Everything is about Me, Myself & I. What a sad world we live in. God help us all. God Bless, Tina La Rosa

'My Heartbreak"

I Know many are wondering or maybe just some are wondering what has happened to me or why I've gone into seclusion as of recently...well its a long story and although I will not neccessarily mention what threw me into my depression I will share with my faithful followers why I feel the way that I do. Since my childhood I've had nothing but misfortunes, bad luck or no luck at all. But dont get me wrong I'm not much of a superstitioness but do feel my life has been cursed. I'm in no way perfect or without fault, but I always try to have good intentions behind what I do and yet its never enough. In my childhood I experienced and witnessed all kinds of abuse from my father abusing my mom, to my father sometimes abusing us to being mentally and verbally abused by my sister at the time. I was a very nervous and timid child and didnt talk much to anyone and only wanted to be under my mom. Even at the tender age of 4-6 I trusted no one and I dont trust many people now. Its true what they say that humans will let you down but God never does. I've been let down, lied to, played for a fool, used and abused by so many that its impossible for me to know whose genuine and real in my life. I give and operate from my heart and its always over-looked. Sometimes I hate having the heart that I have because some dont seem to care how kind it really is. In all my years of living I've never been able to catch a break. I have dreams and goals that are almost Impossible to touch. I come very close, but its always taken right from under my feet. I just wanna give up. I cant say that I've worked extra hard for my dreams simply because I do not know how. The little that I've done continously slaps me in the face and people continously let me down. I give my all and my support and yet I feel like nothing.I feel as though I'm just existing in this world not mattering to many. One thing about me that you'll never have to doubt is my loyalty and trust to you and that anybody can count on me for anything. I will put myself and feelings aside for any who needs me. I love everyone. Sorry for disappearing on you guys from twitter but I had to do it for me as a certain event happened that threw me into my depression. I was deeply hurt by this and opened my eyes to alot

. I just couldnt believe what was revealed to me. I will go no further with this as I will end it here. I will soon return to twitter but still need a little more time away to myself because I am still hurting deeply. I love you guys and especially to those that's shown concern. Means alot. Thanks!

God Bless,

Tina