"When someone doesn't appreciate you." (How it affects your heart)

Have you ever wondered why you concern yourself with others and why they don't seem to care a rats tail about you? It's a question I often ask myself because I'm often the one who cares too much. Those who have the biggest hearts are the ones that get hurt the most or over-looked. Whenever someone needs me I'm there in a hurry. I turn no one away. You can call me anytime at any hour if there's an urgent need for me. But I often find that when I'm in a crisis, no one is there for me. Give or take a few. In the past few years I've really had it bad, but try to share a smile or be a blessing to others despite my own struggles. I don't want to be that individual who makes everything about herself. Things could be a lot worse and there is always someone who has it worse. But I can't help but feel pain when I'm in an urgent need that no one comes to my rescue after all the times I've been there for them or defended them. Why not return it to me? I need comforting too. I'm not always strong, but I try to be. Not feeling appreciated is much like being alone. No one is around to give it to you or comfort you. One can not imagine how feeling unappreciated has on the heart. It has often been said that an Individual can die of a broken heart. I never understood this notion till I realized how heavy my heart felt when no one is around for me when I need them. You feel lonely and lost and like there's nobody else in the world but you. You have no shoulder to cry on or a listening ear or even just a persons presence near so you don't have to feel like you're in this alone. Right now these are my feelings and emotions right now, but then no one would care anyway. Sometimes you just have to walk alone in the world because the people in it won't offer much comfort to you anyway. This is why I'm my own best friend. I treat myself better than any person ever could. I appreciate myself and I don't cause harm to myself. But I am human, I have feelings, I have a heart, a BIG heart that has been shattered by the selfish ways of the world. In closing, I will always love hard and never will I retaliate evil towards  anyone. I have a heart much like God's. I will never hate or become bitter. But as a human being I will just stay to myself and do what is best for me. I will always be there for anyone, friends, family or even strangers if you reach for me in time of need. Love, I guess is a risk. So, I risk getting hurt. but I will guard my heart each time.

Be Blessed,

With Love,

Tina La Rosa